As of Wednesday I have lost 54.4 lbs. Such a fantastic accomplishment. So why am I slipping. It started with some chips last week. One night of eating them turned into two nights of eating them, which turned into pizza night and Wendy's for lunch. I know I should not be eating like this but its like a switch went off that has stopped me from giving a crap.
I am hyperventilating a little bit today. O.k maybe a lot. I went through my entire wardrobe and got rid of every single item that is to big. A big yellow garbage bag full of clothing went out the door never to be worn by me ever again. I am feeling a little bit panicked about this because of two reasons.
First- I can never put the weight back on. Because if I do I will have to walk around naked, and no one wants to see that.
Second- About this time last year I was pregnant, fat, swollen and miserable. I was putting away some clothes and was very irritated how full my dresser was. At that moment I thought I was going to be fat forever and decided to get rid of all my smaller clothing (size 10- 18) I held on to size 20 and 22
So now I am left with size 20 clothing which is getting very loose and I am kicking myself for throwing away all that smaller stuff. But on the bright side 19 days until I go to Florida and can do a major shopping spree while I am in the states :)
Last week at my WI I hit 50 lbs off. I am so excited to be able to tell people I have lost 50 lbs, it is such an achievement. Today I went shopping for some new t-shirts, my old ones are getting pretty ratty. I went into Old navy and got 5 new ones in XL. I was thrilled to be back in an XL last summer the XXL ones were to tight for me and now I am into a XL. Large here I come :)
I have a wall with my weight loss. Don't know why it is there but it was. I have made about 4 good attempts at losing weight each time getting 30 + off. For some reason after I hit 30 I go way off track start gaining back and quit. I call it my curse. I hit 30 lbs in the beginning of February and started to worry. Would I make it out of the 30's and go on or would the curse strike again and throw me against the wall.
Well last night at my WI I lost 2 lbs and broke through my wall. I have lost 40.2 lbs!!!!!!!
So after hearing so much talk about the 30 day shred in the WW community I decided to pick it up when I saw it at Costco. How hard could it be? I have been working out pretty hard for the last few months so the shred should be a piece of cake.
OMG was I wrong. It absolutely killed me. I almost screamed when she said I have to do jumping jacks. I mean seriously I am a 227 lb woman I don't do jumping jacks. But in the spirit of trying new things I did them, even though my stomach flab was jumping up and down as I was. I think the weights I used were to heavy because the strength training was so difficult for me. Don't even get me started on the ab work.